Lesson 20 - Live and Learn

Forgive and Forget -

Like I said before, this one has gotten a lot easier. I'm really understanding this and taking it to heart.

Happiness and Love -

Courage > Honesty > Forgiveness > Freedom > Love... This I coming along. Honesty, check; forgiveness, check; freedom, not so much; Love, working on loving everyone; courage, still needs work.

God and The Doctor-

I'm still having problems with this. I'm doing better, but I still find that I don't have as great of a prayer life as I should. I won't blame it one time constraint because I could be praying now instead of writing this. It is my own error and I must work harder to fix it. 

Walls-

I am breaking my own barriers and becoming more open, but not more trusting.

Love Everyone -

I'm working, but I haven't been doing that well at all. I still make judgment calls where none should be made. I'm still doing so many things wrong with this.

Deeper in Love-

1. Love never gives up,
2. cares more for others than for self,
3. doesn't want what it doesn't have,
4. doesn't strut,
5. doesn't have a swelled head,
6. doesn't force itself on others,
7. isn't always "me first,"
8. doesn't fly off the handle,
9. doesn't keep score,
10. doesn't revel when others grovel,
11. takes pleasure in the truth,
12. puts up with anything,
13. trusts God always,
14. always looks for the best,
15. never looks back,
16. it never dies.

Looking at this list again, I really can say that I have never found all of these things. I am truly looking for this type of love.

Job -

I know this one, it is tough in difficult times to remember that the negative has a purpose too, but I have a grasp on this.

To See -

I know I'm not God. I don't know it all. 

Justifying a Lie -

I catch myself justifying everything still. Not necessarily a lie, but I continue to justify.

The Change Must Begin -   Faith -

Still working on control; this is so hard.

Alone-

I continue to be consumed by the drama that is college. I really need to separate myself from this; separate myself from the lies.

Knock-

If I need something I will ask. For instance, I'm asking for patience, peace, and rest.

Plans -

 I'm not planning as much this week. I'm writing down when assignments are due and what needs to be done, God willing. But other than that, I've made two random appearances at the gym this week. This is something I miss and haven't done in three months.

Who I am-

I still maintain my view that all of the theories are good in their own time. I wouldn't be one to only be utilitarian or follow Kant, but I like all of them in their due time. I am still what I don't want to be; this I will continue to work on.

Temple-

Today was not my best day in the world. I slipped a lot from where I was. I can make a lot of excuses but I will save those for someone who cares and admit my fault.

John and Proverbs-

Yeah, still trying to be like a wise man. Like I said, this week has not been that great so far.

Sent, Defined, and Humbled-


 I realize my mission, but I failed, in my opinion today.



Run -


I not trying to run so much as I'm trying to calm down and relax.




Sorry this is so short. I have so much homework that I'm going crazy.