Day 5 - Live and Learn

So, withing the past 4 days I have "learned" a lot; however, can I apply it? This is the question. Because of this question, every 5th day/lesson will be a Live and Learn post. This is just stating if I have applied what I have learned.

Lesson 1- Forgive & Forget

I'm trying very hard to forget the past, my mistakes, and the mistakes of others because they are, of course, mistakes. While I forgave them long ago, I've not necessarily forgiven myself.


***Lesson 2 - Happiness & Love***

I'm definitly being more up front and honest, even when people don't want to hear it, which isn't necessarily a good thing. As I said before, I'm trying very hard to forget and this will still lead to the freedom which everyone craves. Thus, love is still something that I'm working on.

Today, I started reading 2nd John, a very small book of the Bible. In it was one verse that caught my eye.

5 And now I beseech thee, lady, not as though I wrote a new commandment unto thee, but that which we had from the beginning, that we love one another. 6 And this is love, that we walk after his commandments. This is the commandment, That, as ye have heard from the beginning, ye should walk in it. - 2 John
1:5-6

I then looked at the center of the page, my Bible has references, and it led me to 1John 3:11. After looking at 1John 3:11 - 4:21, I feel like I understand love a little better.

These are a few verses that grabbed my attention and made me think.

• But whoso hath this world's good, and seeth his brother have need, and shutteth up his bowels of compassion from him, how dwelleth the love of God in him? (3:17)
• Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. (4:7)
• Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. (4:10)
• 17 Herein is our love made perfect , that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is , so are we in this world. 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment . He that feareth is not made perfect in love. 19 We love him, because he first loved us. 20 If a man say , I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen , how can he love God whom he hath not seen ? (4:17-20)

Thus, when I say that I don't like or love someone, I'm actually saying that I don't know love, so, I can't know God. That's a very scary thought!!!!

Lesson 3 - God and the Doctor

This lesson really hit me hard. I have definitly been trying my hardest at this lesson because I feel that once this one comes, the others will fall into place.

Lesson 4 - Walls

While I stated that we really don't have "walls" per say, it is still hard to let down the guard/ illusion of control that I have built. I will continue working on this as I want to have complete faith in God.

Odi et amo: quare id faciam, fortasse requiris. Nescio, sed fieri sentio
et excrutior. - Catullus

I hate and I love: why I do so you may well ask. I do not know, but I feel it
happen and am in agony. - Catullus (The above, but in English)