When I'm Gone

So many things are going to change when I move in April/ beginning of May. Thinking about what I have learned while in College and while in Ohio is amazing. I'll try to share a little of what I have learned and hope for. Nevertheless, be all that you are. Change is inevitable, love it and learn to embrace it.


I hope/ wish that:

• Everyone that I leave behind will take every opportunity that comes there way; that they don't let their life pass them by.
• Everyone that I leave behind will be able to remember the lessons that they have learned in their life time.
  
• That everyone will see that everything had a purpose, and that nothing was put in front of them for no reason.
  
• That they have helped me to grow as a person, as a family member, and as a friend.
  
• That fear won't hold them back as it has held me back.
  
• That they will live their lives to the fullest, no matter what that means.
  
• That they will let go of the drama that surrounds them and learn to love life as it was meant to be lived.
  
• That they will realize what they mean to everyone around them, find out who their real friends are, realize who is using them, and realize what makes them who they are.
  
• To be strong when they can be, but be weak when the need to be. Let someone carry you as you have carried others.
  

What I've Learned:

1. Let men do what they want to do. Either they will love you for it, take better care of you for it, or lie, cheat, and steal. Either way, you will know if they really love you or not.
   
2. Let the past be the past; don't go back. There is a reason it is your past and not your present.
   
3. When something happens to you that you don't understand, it doesn't matter whether or not you understand it, but rather, what you do with the situation that life has presented you.
4. People can be the best and worst thing in your life, but man/ woman was not made to be alone. I was a loner, or I thought I was. You are your worst when you think you know it all and have no room to grow.
   
5. The things you think you "own" you don't. This life is just something here for the time being. It isn't forever. What you own doesn't make you who you are, it is what you can live without that shows who you are.
   
6. To have a rumor spread about you just means that someone has no life. If its true, you can come clean and no one will hate you more then they did when they found out the rumor. If it isn't true, then you can disprove it and have your life back.
   
7. To lie gets you nowhere. That is something I have definitely learned.
8. Do your best in everything you do, that is all you have. People don't remember how fast you did something, just how well you did it and how you made them feel.
   
9. How you look doesn't matter, if you don't like how you look change it, if someone else doesn't like it, then screw them.
   
10. Whatever you believe in, dig deeper in it. Find who you are in what you believe and don't let that belief go. Faith is all you have.
    

"When I'm Gone"

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There are secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Or maybe I'm just blind...

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

Love me when I'm gone...

When your education X-Ray
Cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing
That I could not tell my friends
Roaming through this darkness
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

[Chorus]

Or maybe I'm just blind...

[Chorus]

Love me when I'm gone...

Love me when I'm gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone
When I'm Gone